Monday, August 11, 2008

Step-by-step...

Although I grew up in San Francisco, I feel like I'm rediscovering it all over again. So much has changed and so much has stayed the same. I was always in between home and San Jose, San Diego, or somewhere else in the world, for the past couple of years-- but I saw home as somewhere in between. Whenever I was home, I always had the urge to go... pack up and leave whenever I had the chance. Never really absorbed... But for the first time, I feel like I gotta stand still for a little bit. I gotta see what standing still can offer.



I looked through my old journal entries, and read passages of just not wanting to be here because I felt there were so many places in the world to discover. But coming back, with a new state of mind since I left for college 6 years ago, I am so excited to apply what I learned to a place that has molded me. Bridging, connecting the dots, reconnecting, and discovering....

For the past couple of weeks I've been volunteering at a summer program in west Oakland helping youth create stories, then actually help them produce a short movie. And it's been amazing... definately a learning experience. From helping pull out details for their stories to teaching them photography, to introducing multi-media tools, it has been remarkable. And it's definately a breath of fresh air in between this job/gig hunting challenge I undergo day-to-day.







I've also reconnected with folks from
Reignforest Collective to do side gigs with them. I forgot how fun night photography is...







I went down to San Diego this past weekend, and shot around the Gaslamp District. Definately a fun place to shoot at night...






So, yeah, that's what I've been to. a little bit of this and that... just figuring things out. It may not be "journalistic," but I'm still shooting and still loving it. It's all a process.

In life, we all gotta make decisions. I got buddies traveling on the other side of the world pursuing dreams, some don't even have to travel far to do so...but regardless, people take risks in life---involving careers, family, and love. It's all a process... I have a thirst to do so much, and I'm taking it one step at a time.

As Ms. Erykah Badu says:

Time to save the world
Where in the world is all the time
So many things I still don't know
So many times I've changed my mind
Guess I was born to make mistakes
But I ain't scared to take the weight
So when I stumble off the path
I know my heart will guide me back

1 comment:

Shannon Barry said...

What a beautiful blog entry. I couldn't have said it better myself and I loved how the art complemented your concise thoughts. We are definitely going through similar paths, but I guess mine was forced in a way. It is always nice to feel like a tourist in your own state, that's for sure.